In the shuffling madness...

...I was going to call this something like "It has been one week since my last post" but that is not nearly as cool as a Jethro Tull reference.

I have just had so much going on that it has been difficult for me to get into any good writing schedule. Well, blogging schedule because I have written a fair amount of FMEO material lately but being able to plan and post for blog purposes has been a challenge. I don't think it is an accident that when I was trying to think of a cool title that reflected the whirlwind like atmosphere of the past few weeks that this line from "Locomotive Breath" popped into my head.

From "Oceans" to "Locomotive Breath", how does that happen?! My brain is full of entirely too many song lyrics for one. But for two, it's kind of an appropriate song to the way I feel about my life at certain times. After all the whole song is about a guy's life falling apart, not that mine is quite there but I have my moments.

We all do, don't we? A stumble, a roadblock, a detour. It can be frustrating. In my moments today, when I felt overwhelmed with feelings about the circumstances in my life, I left my house and went and hid in plain sight where I had a long conversation with God. It helps a lot. I remind God that I am a spaz sometimes and He reminds me that He's got my back. Always has. Always will.

In the shuffling madness...things get shaken loose. Sometimes good, sometimes bad, sometimes just annoyingly and incessantly. How I react (or don't) is up to me and tonight I choose to thank God for the blessing of my day and to go to sleep secure in the knowledge that the only train wreck in my life is my imagination which is already starting to formulate a locomotive themed playlist.

I am not the little engine that woulda, coulda, shoulda. I am the little engine that will. I will survive the shuffling madness and I will enjoy the ride.