What I can't put into words...

...I usually put into music. Someone else's music, because I sir am no songstress.

I am sitting here tonight. It is currently 11:56pm. In four minutes, it will be April 1.

April 1 always brings this song to mind.
I wore this cassette out. Yes, I said cassette.

Anyway.

Ironically, this song popped into my head before I realized that tomorrow was the first. Nothing like disturbing pictures on the internet to send my monkey-mind reeling through the musical archives of my brain. I would show you the picture but I would prefer not to have to see it again. It's not grotesque or pornographic or sensational or anything you would problem expect to see if someone said they saw disturbing pictures on the internet.

It's just sad and it specifically brought the following lyrics to mind:

Night driving without headlight
Wearin' sunglasses too
Lookin' good but sure don't feel right
Anything to be cool

I was cool once for about half a minute. I think it was a Thursday. Turns out it way better to just be myself. Not to mention way easier!

So, I am going to take that sad image of the sad character in the trite tableau of decay and pray. It's all I can do...until Dr. Phil returns my phone calls. No, seriously, some days, no fooling the only thing you or me or anyone can do it turn it over to God. Just let it go and believe in the promises.